Addiction is a big word really for us to admit to , if we are the type of person who wants to give our best (sometimes from my own experience with the big word that can take on a life of its own) , it will convince the part of our brain;that allows, to remain with it because it is the only way we can give our best.
In reality we know that this is not the case , we know that our bodies can survive and be so much more alive without the help of our new best friend Addiction , we know Addiction is not a healthy friend , what real friend would creep up on us telling us lies in order to continue the friendship , what real friend would cause us so much more pain than the pain that drew us towards them in the first place.
This post is for me , it is the Descartes method I am adopting in my battle with addiction to fight back really , the purpose really is to destroy my old friend addiction , who has been a very bad friend to me over the years . I once said I felt deprived if I could not smoke , the person I said this too was surprised , it is only now that I know addiction is what deprives me , it takes away my self esteem, it takes enormous amounts of money I cannot really afford, it robs me of feeling beautiful really , not just on the inside but on the outside too, my hair and teeth , and skin would be a lot better off with my cigarette money spent on their upkeep instead .
So these posts are about doubting , thus the ref. to Descartes , I am doubting the myths my friend Addiction is feeding me . I am not even going to consider Science for now just my own true knowledge. Addiction is a best friend I have to murder or perhaps a weed I must smother and watch carefully , perhaps I will dedicate a patch in my garden for this project , yes that is a good idea. The sun is shining here , the grand kids are coming from Dublin tomorrow and the garden is calling, life is good, so around me I have a lot of really nice things to do and maybe I shall leave Addiction behind for a few hours , at least.
My mom’s idea was to take little steps an hour at a time and perhaps a glass of water every hour , I never really tried her way , always thought I knew best, maybe she is spurring me on from her new home because today Mom that’s the advise I am going to take , and put some water in the fridge for drinking in between. Happy Days everyone and be kind to yourselves all these struggles and challenges are what makes us the vibrant people we are , and we are much much stronger than our weedy friend addiction . Happy Days.