Today was okay , now if I am honest okay is never really okay. Okay for me usually means I underachieved , the goals were put aside and I managed to exist just about , I was kind to anyone who appeared in my space ; the space was only tiny though , so often it does become possible to enter into a tiny space and just exist and that is my okay.
What is your okay? I don’t like okays; do you? for me they lack vibrancy, they lack interaction not only with others but with myself also. I love my own company and have often spent brilliant , vibrant days alone with myself so the okay day today had nothing to do with lack of company it had to do with discipline and allowing myself to be undisciplined and lazy. Now it did not help that sleep had eluded me the night before so perhaps a lesson here could be get adequate sleep each night if possible.
The word okay should have sirens attached, for me at least ;because okay for me translates to ; get out , get walking, get running, just get out and move. The word I think has different meanings for us all.
Now I do know someone very special that has a constant skin complaint that is at times painful, when asked at times how are the wounds her answer is usually; they’re okay ,or not too bad. I cannot fix this but the words she uses to describe how she is alert me to the fact that she needs lots of kindness and encouragement also practical help at times like making sure everything that is needed for wound care and sometimes pain relief is available to help her forget her moments of okay and not too bad. I remind her that her okays will pass; she always seemed to acknowledge this fact since she was toddler bless her , I have never known anyone with so much joy etched on their face .
I am very grateful for this person of whom I am talking, I am grateful that she has become a wonderful vibrant amazing person who has never for one moment allowed her genetic skin disorder rule her life , I am grateful for her family that has never allowed it to rule their lives. The way in which they have dealt with the word okay is to rise above it , feel it then do something positive about it. I don’t know where they all got such gifts but I am so very grateful that these gifts have been bestowed and the okay word does not linger.
Happy Days Kathy.